3/03/2015

I Didn't Go to College For This

I didn't go to college to give baths, change diapers and make bottles in the wee hours of the night.

I didn't drive myself into $40,000+ in student loan debt from journalism school to take an unpaid, full-time, 24/7 job with no sick days or paid time off.

I didn't go to college to become a full-time chef, nap warden and dish-washer.

I didn't spend four years of my life studying and learning how to succeed in the new biz only to stay at home and chase around two littles and a dog.
My college graduation, May of 2008






























But something happened, you guys.

Life happened.
I got married to the love of my life.

We had fun, but then it got hard.

We survived years of brokenness and bitterness with infertility.

And my heart changed.

My goals changed.
adoption
Instead of caking on make-up and chasing bad guys for a 5 o'clock deadline, being a [frazzled] mom became my priority.

Part of the reason I left TV was because I wanted to spend more time with my family.

And when I walked out of a newsroom six months ago, I had no idea what was in store for my family.

But God sure had a trick up His sleeve.
Now that another beautiful lil' gal has joined our family, I've made the decision to stay home.

This is so scary, you guys.
Financially, this is scary.

It's stressful.

But to be honest, my biggest worry is whether I'll be "good enough" for my sweet girls.

I worry about getting frustrated and overwhelmed.

I wonder if I'll be able to teach them enough so they can flourish and learn.

Or if I'll be too boring.

I worry about getting everything done.

Whether I'll have enough energy to make dinner every night.

And if I'll have enough stamina to wake up and do it all over again the next day.

But then I remember God has us covered.

He closes and opens doors with clarity in His perfect timing.

And because of this assurance, I feel like in this season -- in our family -- this is the right thing to do.

Sure, I might be reading, Brown Bear, Brown Bear 23904 times a day and dancing to Elmo's Countdown to Christmas in the middle of my living room; heck, I may not even shower until 4 p.m. [you've been warned...], but at the end of the day, my two little girls are only little once.

And I don't want to look back and feel like I missed out.

[That, and childcare for two kiddos is costly on the salaries of a social worker and nonprofit employee...]

While I'll be spending the next few weeks wrapping up my professional 8-5 gig in the PR world, I'll be scouring Pinterest and picking peoples' brains looking for ideas on how to keep my sanity and make this time rewarding and worth it for my family.

Stay-at-home-mommas: Teach me your ways! Tips, advice and encouragement all welcome here!

Related content:
Why I'm Walking Away From TV
My "I'm Not On TV Anymore" Bucket List

3 comments:

  1. Shelley - Congratulations!!! This is a huge decision, but one you will not regret! :)
    I stopped teaching a few months after we adopted our second - she's now 10 mo, my son is almost 3. I was teaching only part time, but it was a "break" and I enjoyed being a "professional" a few hours a week in the evenings. It was still a big change!
    My tips... find some great moms - you will need the fellowship! Local mom groups can be a source, or just start asking around. Churches often have them. Know that you will want and NEED a break from time to time. It's okay to admit it. So make sure you can sometimes run an errand or 2 alone while your hubby stays with the girls, or even a morning off here and there. Seriously. :) It's hard work, rewarding, so fulfilling, and frustrating all at once. You will love it and there will be days you want to start screaming with them. Haha.
    Also... the witching hour... between 4 and 5. So close to dinner. It's like clockwork- somehow that's when the meltdowns always start. I've found that if I do as much dinner prep work ahead of time, it makes it so much easier to get dinner on the stove so I can tend to the insanity. If you can't eat that early, a snack to tide them over helps too! You'll be in my prayers!
    ~Laura

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  2. Hi Shelley, Thank you for sharing so authentically. Recently, I began teaching one of our four children at home. I had some of the same fears because I had to pull him out of an unbelievably amazing public school seat he had won by lottery. I felt like I was giving up the opportunity of having a salary- for years. At the same time, I knew it was the right and faithful thing to do. Being a parent, I feel as if I often make choices that look idiotic to the world. Anyway, I wrote a few of my thoughts here and wanted to share them with you. http://www.beyondthepicketfencedream.com/2015/01/i-used-to-be-important-new-years.html [Oh, and if you don't have a Kindle yet, I would make the investment and keep it on hand for that unexpected quiet moment.]

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  3. Congratulations Shelley you'll do great! When our son joined our lives with only about 3 weeks notice I went from working full time to now only working 15 hours/wk. I love it because I am home every single day and then daddy has alone time 2 nights/wk. This gave me an opportunity to join a weekly bible study where I get adult time and he can play with friends. We also do mommy & me swimming lessons. What a gift it is to be there to teach and watch your children grow. You will never regret it. Enjoy it mama. You've earned it!

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